The following poems and writing are a sample of the work created through these workshops.
It feels so different for me to be home but yet still the same.
I've been home now for about 30 days just after doing a 16 month sentence in prison.
From Chowchilla women's prison to California Institution for Women I couldn't. wait for the day for me to finally come home besides my daughter and parents some times wonder what I was rushing back to of course my freedom but if I look at what I left behind that's really nothing some people being in the same place doing the same thing unless I look or surround myself around something different nothing will be different.
I sometimes wonder how I got here it's called life life shows up and unless you have the tools and coping skills to deal with life you're going to crumble it took a lot for me to come here today I said today I will do something different.
I should know everything about you but I don't.
I yearn to know your favorite color your favorite food your favorite book I can't wait to hold you again and kiss you all over your face I think of you everyday and I love you so much I know.
Our time is coming soon God does everything for a reason someone wants told me you want to make God laugh tell him your plans I pick up the phone quite often wanting to call you but then I think otherwise is it the right time are you busy am I disturbing your life.
What will you be thinking when we get off the phone do you miss me like I miss you.
I have so many questions but can't ask right now in due time not on my time but I'm God's time when the timing is right you will be back in my arms.
Love your mom.
Home for the holiday season.
For me home brings to mind many things looking out of my window and watching the traffic go by after 5 p.m. seeing people on the hustle for homework it's sitting in my room or my living room in silent listening to the sound of rain when the neighborhood is asleep it's coming up in the easy chair or on the couch or in bed even with a nice mug of tea or cocoa.
It's spending lazy Sundays in bed watching classic movies all day or listening to Jazz after cleaning house on a Saturday it's burning sage incense and candles it's the smell of lavender fabuloso and Ajax after cleaning my bathroom and mopping my floors it's walking on the pier and smelling cotton candy popcorn or chocolate nibbling on a waffle cone it's talking to my papa on the phone and hearing him laugh it's getting a great big hug from my favorite friends Papa and my big sister Pam it's in my heart and memories always.
Home to me is a place in my mind state where I can be my natural self a place where there is no fear in my heart I can just relax and do me.
When I get through with my day and can shut my eyes peacefully and meditate to the silence surrounding me a place where patience is no virtue.
Home is where my heart. is home is a piece of Mind home is the laughter of kids home is the passage of time home can be a mansion on a mountain of regret home is where you let go and let God all Sorrows to forget home is a place of shelter out of the pouring rain home is with God the only pill for my pain.
Home is a place where nobody is held hostage and there is no threat of harm where love4oneanotherflows freely where no one is stopping on another for their own paranoid game.
Home is where there is room to grow and to feel good about one another home is where food is cooking to music the body the mind and soul.
Laughter in the sound you hear is my home not at me or to harm another.
Home is where creativity flows where when special talents are instigated.
Home to me is a place that makes you feel welcome and comfortable to me you must be a safe and secure and loved and calm.
All the same time.
I can't wait to see my own white picket fence with a welcome mat at the door and in the inside a picture on the wall of Jesus eating and a sign saying home sweet home.
A fireplace can help but sometimes a portable one works just for say.
Bunk beds for the kids a big kids size bed for me and my husband with a big screen TV in the room with all the special movies.
Don't forget Teddy singing in the background about a 50/50 left…
They say home is where the heart is but where is my home where is my heart? My heart is with my son Jeremiah, my heart is loving myself which I am in the process of beginning to do or maybe I have always loved myself I just didn't know how. All those times I latched onto others seeking safety and dysfunctional relationships maybe just maybe I was trying so hard to love myself I just didn't know how. Does this even make sense? How do I make sense of things I don't fully understand.
Home home has been so many different places for me scattered about here and there scattered about Everywhere You Learn never to get attached to one placebecause it's never guaranteed I guess it's safe to say the Earth is my turf myheart is in the bay no matter where I go I feel safe.
Okay on a more positive Vision I will have my own home I will own a home my very own home in my name I will buy basil family be happy white picket fence safety Jeremih love spirit of God home sweet home.
Home is where the heart is right now my heart is set on positive growth I feel at home when I'm comfortable and familiar.
Sometimes growth is uncomfortable this is something I have learned and I have learned to embrace heart. Home is with my sister who knows me and my struggles home is where I feel unconditional love this question makes me reflect on how I might have answered maybe a year ago and I honestly don't even think I had would have been able to answer now I can say I feel at home within myself the search for peace Within Myself loving and taking care of myself where I feel safe.
Home to me would be a warm place where I can command my higher power and let love peace and happiness fill my soul with all those that I feel love for, my children Mom Dad the whole family where we grew up with my Thomas my baby that I miss so very much with all my heart or we could laugh play go to church and praise God for all our blessings.
What is home?
Home is where all my family come together in one place.
I haven't been home in several years.
But home this year is at my dad's house.
I will go with three or four kids and three grandchildren I will also be with my dad his wife and my brother his wife and two kids I will also be at the lot of family and friends this is as I said the first time in many years I will be included in the scattering as for home I have a women step down and I have a bedroom that I share with one other lady I have a place to call home and it has been along time since I have that I am looking forward to having my own home one day and the next year for the first time in a long long time that is a realistic goal I am looking forward to being with my entire family this year and another incredible blessing of recovery.
Home to me as being with family and friends and Mom and Dad and Hope.
Home for me is being around family that is able to leave all of the outside it chat the door and enjoy other family members presents peace tranquility love joy happiness and creating memories playing games watching all the children laugh play and stuff themselves with delicious food and dessert home is having friends over that have become Family Sharing childhood stories up until our current lives.